In a happy place.

So i haven't been around for awhile, i know this. I have changed jobs in the last year and to be honest it is a lot of work, and a lot of time consumed. i love the people and the new faces every day and i love that a guest has a great experience on my watch, but the hours are killer. i have been trying really hard to work long days, filled with as much work as i can do to cut down on the amount of work i will have to do the next day...turns out the more work you do in one day doesn't necessarily free up time for the next day but creates more time to fill with more work. Does this make sense? is this just what a "real grown-up job" is? i don't know if i like it. i have decided to do the best i can do while i am at work, do a great job to the best of my ability and be a great leader and set a great example for my peers and associates. But when i am not at work. i am not at work. i have a family, a fiancee, great friends and a life. lately i have realized that i am not spending my free time the way that i feel like i was meant to. now i am not sure of what exactly that means except i know that i was meant to be happy, with my job, with my life and with my family and hopefully my family to be. I thought i was going to hate planning a wedding (Bess we talked about this) and since i have been so overwhelmed and over worked on the job, i find that planning my destination wedding is all i want to do on my time off. We aren't getting hitched till August 2011 and i have pretty much done everything i could possibly do, just so my time off is filled with something other then work. i look forward to when my dress comes in just so i can go for fittings, i look forward to every "update" from my invitation/website designer just so i can be reminded of our special week away, and all think about lately, even when running food out of the window at work is laying on the beach in Cuba, choosing my flowers the day before we say our vows, the breathtaking photographs that we will have taken in my one of my most favourite cities, Havana and the flickering black and white video documentation of us that we will look back on for years to come. So that is why i have started up again. my blog will keep me sane and let me talk about my wedding as much as i want and no one has to listen.

see you soon.

xo

tina.